the younger me.

The younger me…

  • took things for granted
  • was stubborn (probably still am)
  • thought I was mature enough to make wise decisions

Thinking back, I was probably a fortunate person, but was also the one who let go of everything that I had.

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多年後; Years later…

曾沛慈 – 多年後
詞:潘琪妮
曲:潘琪妮

說愛情總是一個突然的衝動
赤裸裸在人面前攤開雙手
講的每一句話一個念頭
無非成為下個故事的暖身動作

現在的我和他仍一樣的傻
一直都很晴朗少了一些漂蕩
屋裡的暖色調還有咖啡的香
就算失眠了我想你也不會怎樣

多年後不再習慣成為了一種習慣
多年後你的喜歡再也不是我的喜歡
換了另一個地方繼續和別人晚餐
是勇敢還是笨蛋
讓兩個人相聚了又解散

現在的我和他仍一樣的傻
一直都很晴朗少了一些漂蕩
屋裡的暖色調還有咖啡的香
就算失眠了我想你也不會怎樣

多年後不再習慣成為了一種習慣
多年後你的喜歡再也不是我的喜歡
換了另一個地方繼續和別人晚餐
是勇敢還是笨蛋
讓兩個人相聚了又解散

時間是極度瘋狂隨時要爆炸的船
回憶在心中搖晃
讓你要想不想要斷不斷

多年後如果再見又想起你的喜歡
多年後如果再見再也不是一種背叛
換了另一個地方繼續兩人的晚餐
是勇敢還是笨蛋
很有默契相聚了又解散

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Leap of faith.

A leap of faith, in its most commonly used meaning, is the act of believing in or accepting something intangible or unprovable, or without empirical evidence.

source: Wikipedia

Maybe precisely it’s to believe in something that is intangible and unprovable, it requires courage; a huge amount of courage – which I foresee that I will never be able to do it.

I may seem to be a super outgoing person, smiling and laughing everyday as though i do not have bad days in my life. But fact is, I’m actually quite a pessimistic person, always over-thinking and over-analyzing things that it’s beginning to scare me.

I seem to be having serious issues with trust and faith, that it is scaring me, and may even ruin my life. I think so much that i’m losing sleep at times and scare myself because i’m always analyzing things and coming up with different conclusions.

I know that there’s no one in this world that can help me overcome these other than myself. What should I do now?

I’m really scare.

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艾怡良 – 我不知道愛是什麼

A very nice song I fell in love with while watching 16個夏天 (the ways we were); I don’t know what love is.

And to be honest, I really don’t. And I’m trying hard to figure it out. I will and I can.

坦白來說 我不知道愛是什麼
愛不愛你 多愛你
諸如此類的這些話 我都不知道是什麼
所以不要與我交談 不要揣測過頭
如果這些都模糊了你的基本認知
如果對你來說不夠雋永
那麼歡迎來到我的腦中
這裡對愛沒有解釋 只有一些細微的撩動

例如
我直視你的眼神與她不同
我走過你身邊的角度與她不同
我開口跟你說話的時機與她不同
我用的詞彙艱澀與她不同

坦白來說 我不知道愛是什麼
愛不愛你 多愛你
諸如此類的這些話 我都不知道是什麼
所以不要與我交談 不要揣測過頭
如果這些都模糊了你的基本認知
如果對你來說不夠雋永
那麼歡迎來到我的腦中
這裡對愛沒有解釋 只有一些細微的撩動

例如
我直視你的眼神與她不同
我走過你身邊的角度與她不同
我開口跟你說話的時機與她不同
我用的詞彙艱澀與她不同

例如
我真的在乎否則不會沉默
一如以往面無表情卻更洶湧
還期待或許是壞了規則要的太多
或許愛是這樣吧 那我不懂
我是獨一無二的 你懂不懂
我的愛是什麼 你得自己感受

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Step out of your comfort zone.

I’ve always thought being a Singaporean allows me to get exposed to many different things due to the fact that we are very diverse, with many different cultures and nationalities in a country. But man, I was wrong.

Some may know I was away in US for 6months. In the past 6 months, I would deem it as the most adventurous 6months in my life thus far. The initial thought of being away from home for 6months got me hesitating if I should take up the offer. But eventually, I was glad I did; the best choice I ever made. Made so many new friends, gained so much exposure and experience.

In the past 6 months, I’ve learned that one should step out of their comfort zone and explore the world. It need not be staying away from home for a period of time, but rather, doing things that you’ve never done before (of course, nothing illegal). You’re be surprised at what you will gain out of it.

This 6months definitely changed my perspective towards my life; that I should always fight for what I want, do what I want, and stop remaining status quo and drowning myself in my own thoughts. I should be more receptive towards new things and be daring enough to embrace changes.

If I can do it, so can you! Life is short, do not waste it!

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It’s been long.

It’s been long since I last penned something. I’ll be back in action soon, I promise.

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Being a Public Figure

We always dream of being a famous actress, a famous singer, indulging in applauds and cheers, having our own fan club and all. But, there’s give and take in everything we do. Does anyone realises that?

When someone decided to pursue the route to stardom, the first concern will always be, “will I be famous?”. But how much does it takes for one to become famous? Endless work, abnormal working hours, and what’s weekends? what’s family day? what’s personal time?

When one becomes famous, each minor action will be enlarged by the paparazzi. Each action, word or sentence may receive wide public criticism. And because of popularity, one’s schedule may become so packed that health gets neglected.

We always see the glamorous side of the artistes, but never really understood the hard work they put in. We see reports on the big cars, big apartments they owned, perhaps for some, living in luxury. But does everyone know what they gave up in exchange for this?

Yes, one concert may cost us a few hundred bucks. But the cost to organize a concert ain’t cheap to begin with.

I decided to publish this post because I came to know of a ridiculous situation in Taiwan – Singer refunded TWD500(cost of ticket) each to all 120 fans who attended her mini concert using own money because some fans said she organized mini concert for profit

Maybe it was angst, maybe it was sour grapes (since there were only 120 tickets up for grab), maybe.. but there’s no need to hurt someone with vicious words.

Hebe Tien, a member of S.H.E. I have been supporting her since I was 13. I have never been those die-hard fans; rushing to the airport when she arrive in Singapore, getting all merchandise (though sometimes I do now, but definitely depends on my financial situation), booking taxi just to follow her everywhere (sounds like a stalker, but I know some fans do). But most importantly, I support her by staying rational.

I support Hebe, not only because she sings well, but also her staying true to herself, educating and enlightening the people around her.

And being Hebe Tien, the one who always educate her fans on recycling, on doing charity and the one Singer I know who insisted to have only one version for all her album so that the fans will not waste money to purchase all different versions, has been accused by her “fans” (double quoted because I don think they deserved to be named as her fans) that she is doing everything just for profit.

I know some people might argue that I do not know her personally, so what makes me so sure she does all those; it’s simply because she takes the lead. She does what she says.

I always hear things like, “Why waste money? Because of people like you guys, she’s now living in luxury, in big apartment.”

But I would like to ask in return, “Do you know how much she sacrifices? Do you know how many HOURS a year she gets to sleep in that big apartment of hers? Do you know how many times a year is she able to have get together with her family? Does she even have a personal life at all because of fame?” She chose this path, to become a Singer, hence she has to give up personal life? No, public figures are also human, they too have emotions and feelings, so why can’t they do what they want like anyone of us?

Singer / Actress – It’s just another job, ain’t it?

We hold an office job, with regular working hours, probably not as well-paid as a famous Singer / Actress, smaller house, but we get our weekends, we get to spend our time with our family, we have our personal life, we are able to behave like ourselves in public showing our real emotions.

She has sacrificed for the job she has chosen. She worked hard for everything she owns today, isn’t it? So, why make it sound like she’s ripping you guys off, especially when she has constantly been trying to lessen the financial burden off the fans?

If your financial status doesn’t allow you to attend concerts, then DON’T. Guys, be rational, even though we very much love to support our idols. Do what is within your means.

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